2mmol The [illegible] I do not wish to write any of my recent thoughts on being with girls now alone. I find it hard to explain how I feel about them, and I don't know what to say. I just want to be left alone. I think that if I were to try to explain it, I would only make things worse for myself. So I will leave it at that. I have been thinking a lot about this lately, and I am not sure how to feel about it. I know that I should be happy that I have found someone who makes me feel good, but something is missing. It's like there's a hole in my heart that can't be filled no matter what happens. And I don't know why this is happening to me right now. I guess it's just part of growing up and learning more about myself and the world around me.