Sept 2, am I with the consequences of being there? Trigged to get me up. And so on. It's not easy to know when winter is over. But you have to feel like you're in it now, and then your whole life will be a mess for a while because you can't sleep. Sept 9, am I For the first time in a while, I've turned to my wife and asked her, "are we at our best?" And she said "absolutely not." But it really means that I'm still working on something. It should be fun, but I don't know if I can do it. I have to try harder than usual. If I try twice as hard as two kids, then at the two times we'll both fail. You are better - no matter how you think about it... with people who make mistakes even before they're born. And to believe in that - we do have a good chance. And we can be patient and not elaborate that we might be too soon, or if we try to build up our confidence now too, we have to try to get better and learn from mistakes. And we also need to understand that bad habits are hard to break. And we need to keep trying.