I have been very much in doubt as to whether I should "give up" altogether. I feel that most of the work which I have done has been for nothing. It is not too late to reconsider and perhaps it will be a pleasure now to some extent to see that those who knew me better than others, had a chance to know more about my own experience. It seems as if this was at top of priority. And yet I have to begin again because I have no idea what I should do next. It is hard to tell you where to go or what to do, but I hope that you will understand that I am in a difficult position and that it may take some time before I can be sure of what to do. It seems as if this was at top of priority. And yet I have to begin again because I have no idea what I should do next. It is hard to tell you where to go or what to do, but I hope that you will understand that I am in a difficult position and that it may take some time before I can be sure of what to do. I know that surely God has given me enough to start over. And so I must try my best to get back on track. But I do not see how to do that without help from others who have had similar experiences. It seems as if this was at top of priority. And yet I have to begin again because I have no idea what I should do next. It is hard to tell you where to go or what to do, but I hope that you will understand that I am in a difficult position and that it may take some time before I can be sure of what to do. I know that surely God has given me enough to start over. And so I must try my best to get back on track. But I do not see how to do that without help from others who have had similar experiences. It seems as if this was at top of priority. And yet I have to begin again because I have no idea what I should do next. It is hard to tell you where to go or what to do, but I hope that you will understand that I am in a difficult position and that it may take some time before I can be sure of what to do. I know that surely God has given me enough to start over. And so I must try my best to get back on track. But I do not see how to do that without help from others who have had similar experiences. It seems as if this was at top of priority. And yet I have to begin again because I have no idea what I should do next. It is hard to tell you where to go or what to do, but I hope that you will understand that I am in a difficult position and that it may take some time before I can be sure of what to do. I know that surely God has given me enough to start over. And so I must try my best to get back on track. But I do not see how to do that without help from others who have had similar experiences.